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Friday, January 04, 2008
I'm up before Scout, and that's a rarity. I should be doing something a little bit more productive than organizing pictures on my computer and blogging. I did empty the bathroom trash when I got up this morning. Good enough.
Scout in a new outfit she got for Christmas:
Posing with her teething buiscuit:
Another new outfit from Christmas (well, they are really jammies, but I turned it into an outfit by adding the sweater and some cute shoes :)
After her bath yesterday:
One of the things I would like to do with my blog in 2008 is to write more about my spiritual journey, a la Wendy's blogging resolution. It's always at the forefront of my mind, but I normally just keep it to myself for some reason.
I'll start now.
2007 was fantastic. DH and became parents to a gorgeous little girl, so obviously, it was a great year. But it was also a year of spiritual laziness for me (and for DH, I presume). It makes me sad when I think that it has been 5 years since DH and I had a major life/heart/soul change, quit our partying ways and stumbled into a church. (not necessarily in that order) It makes me sad because I feel like I should be leaps and bounds ahead of where I am. I am still a selfish bratty baby (ahem, spiritually speaking, of course :) when I should be a selfless woman of God, a rock for my family, always seeking good, always looking for ways to help others, (and most importantly) always talking to and hearing from God the Father. I'm not expecting total perfection from myself, but I know that I am capable of much more than this. I am tired of not living up to my potential.
I am technically a "leader" in our church, since I am on the praise & worship team and used to lead the song service on Wednesday night. I feel like such a poser. I put on a show, because I know others are depending on me. But in reality, I don't even WANT to go to church most of the time. Something that used to be a joy and a passion has become a burden and obligation. Something has to change.
One of the things I would like to do with my blog in 2008 is to write more about my spiritual journey, a la Wendy's blogging resolution. It's always at the forefront of my mind, but I normally just keep it to myself for some reason.
I'll start now.
2007 was fantastic. DH and became parents to a gorgeous little girl, so obviously, it was a great year. But it was also a year of spiritual laziness for me (and for DH, I presume). It makes me sad when I think that it has been 5 years since DH and I had a major life/heart/soul change, quit our partying ways and stumbled into a church. (not necessarily in that order) It makes me sad because I feel like I should be leaps and bounds ahead of where I am. I am still a selfish bratty baby (ahem, spiritually speaking, of course :) when I should be a selfless woman of God, a rock for my family, always seeking good, always looking for ways to help others, (and most importantly) always talking to and hearing from God the Father. I'm not expecting total perfection from myself, but I know that I am capable of much more than this. I am tired of not living up to my potential.
I am technically a "leader" in our church, since I am on the praise & worship team and used to lead the song service on Wednesday night. I feel like such a poser. I put on a show, because I know others are depending on me. But in reality, I don't even WANT to go to church most of the time. Something that used to be a joy and a passion has become a burden and obligation. Something has to change.
Labels: church, deep thoughts, dreams, general complaining, pics of scout, spirituality
posted by Unkempt Mommy at 7:16 AM
2 Comments:
Hmmmm, ditto everything you just said. Jonathon and I are small group leaders and lately I feel like that is an obligation and I am just going through the motions of things. Then I say I will change but nothing does. It is part laziness, part distraction, but that's not an excuse. How to get things "back to how they were" eludes me. If you figure out the secret, please share.
awwwwwwwwwww... she's a cutie!!
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