I am really loving this whole mommy thing lately. I don't think I saw it at the time, but having a baby was a really rough adjustment those first several weeks. (duh, I know) With Scout being fussy most of the time and me just feeling like I could never get anything done, I was pretty sure I was doing something "wrong"....like I was making everything harder than it needed to be, but I didn't know how to NOT do that. Now, I just look back and realize feeling that way was all part of having a newborn. It's something so wonderful, but so scary and weird at the same time.

I can remember my mom telling me that Scout would grow out of her "colicky-ness" around 12 weeks, at which point her mood would change for the better. I was skeptical and thought to myself, "Yeah right - it's like a magic switch, and all of the sudden she'll turn into little miss happy baby. Pshaw!" I guess it hasn't exactly been like flipping a magic switch.......but pretty darn close. She is napping better now, not fussing as much in the evenings, and just generally has a more laid back demeanor. Don't get me wrong, there are still times when I have to walk the floor with her, bouncing, shushing, and playing loud music to get her to calm down......but those times are getting few and far between.

Scout will be 12 weeks old on Thursday (holy crap!) and I am in love with her! She is developing such a cool little personality. I love it when she stares into my eyes while I'm nursing her. Sometimes, I won't be paying a bit of attention and I'll just glance down while I'm feeding her and she is staring intently at my face with her bright blue eyes. It's so wonderful. I just can't stop hugging her and kissing her soft little neck over and over while I say, "I love you, little girl!" Of course, she can't understand me, but I hope she knows.

I really enjoy watching DH with her. He loves to entertain her by "flying" her around the house in a Superman-type-position while she looks around contentedly with wide eyes and drool dripping down her chin. He is a wonderful daddy. I feel so blessed that he goes out and works hard every day so I can stay home with our daughter. No offense to any readers that may work outside the home, but knowing that DH and I will be the ones raising our child and not some random day care workers is absolutely priceless.

The thought that I will be Scout's very first teacher is sobering, but exciting too. I've already begun our first "lessons". At diaper changes, I often point to her eyes, nose, mouth, hands, feet, etc and tell her what each one is called. When we go outside, I point to the grass and the trees and say the word "green" over and over again. I sing to her constantly throughout the day. I want to give her every advantage and help her little mind blossom and grow and reach its full potential. I think "wearing" her is really going to help do that too. I've read that infants who are carried in a parent's arms or worn in a baby carrier for the majority of the day spend more time in a quiet alert "learning" state than infants who are not. It makes sense to me; that a baby who can be up where she can take in her surroundings while feeling comfortable and secure will be more apt to learn how things work.....and just be happier in general.

Well, I'm sleepy so I'm going to join my little girl and my hubby in our cozy bed.

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