The Fundus Among Us
Friday, October 06, 2006
I was driving myself batty earlier today trying to find the top of my uterus (fundus). Last time I went to the midwife, I was 10 weeks and 3 days, so the bugger was still hiding below my pubic bone. I am at 12 weeks and 4 days today, so I thought maybe I could feel it myself. My Dr. Sears Pregnancy Book says to empty your bladder, lie down on your back, and feel around just above your pubic bone. There should be a hard round thing there and that's the uterus. I couldn't feel a darn thing. Well, maybe I could, but who knows? There are all sorts of lumps and bumps and stuff inside that squishy belly of mine...maybe one of those was my uterus. :) hee hee.
I'm just curious, is all. Every normal person in the universe has either heard their baby's heartbeat w/ the Doptone or had an early sonogram by this stage of the game. It's my own decision not to have those things, but I'm still feeling a bit antsy. My nausea has died down quite a bit. Aside from the gigantic volcano zits, greasy forehead, and painful boobies, I don't really "feel" pregnant. If my big gut is any indication that everything's alright in there, than the baby must be doing just dandy! Worrying is silly. I don't think I'm worried, per se....just excited to start feeling those little kicks and jabs. I'm not sure if I feel them yet or not. It's tough to tell, when I'm not sure what it feels like. There are times when I feel "movement" way down low, but I usually just chalk it up to a muscle twitch or gas or something.
There are 3 people in our lives who have recently had miscarriages. My cousin, my friend @ church, and DH's pal who lives in Texas. It's hard not to be curious about what's going on inside my belly when I keep hearing bad news like that....but FEAR is from the enemy and the bible says that perfect love casts out all fear. Fear is something that has no place in my heart, because I am a child of the Most High. The whole reason DH and I have chosen to have a low-intervention pregnancy is because we trust that we will be blessed with a healthy and uneventful pregnancy and birth. We KNOW that our child will be healthy and well and no amount of bad news can stop me from believing that.
Am I giving myself a pep-talk? Yep.
posted by Unkempt Mommy at 7:24 PM
2 Comments:
You are exactly one week ahead of me and I can relate to every single thing you've written here.
We lost a pregnancy to blighted ovum back in April and it's taken us over a year of infertility to get to this point so I've already had two ultrasounds. Even seeing the baby and knowing that the heartbeat is well within the normal range, I still have worries. I've been told by every mother I know that the worry is a natural part of the process and it just intensifies once you have the baby. So I suppose we should be trying to learn from these early experiences. Mostly I am trying not to obsess and focus on the things that I have no control over, which is just about 99% of all this stuff, and instead concentrate on the stuff I can do like eating healthy, resting and getting some exercise so my butt doesn't get any bigger than it already is :o)
This is such an exciting time. Even with all the potential worries and things that can go wrong, I am just so excited to be here, watching my body change a little bit more every day and waiting for the moment when I feel the baby for the first time so this whole thing will seem more real.
Best of luck to you!
I can sit at look at my 4 and 5 year old children and worry that something might be going wrong with them, so I can't fault you for what is going on in your little preggo head!! I had early u/s with my babies because my first pg resulted in an early m/c (earlier than what you are now), because twins run in my family, and because of other health issues that I have. It helped to see them, but I worried like crazy nonetheless. I would pray, give them over to the Lord, and lay in bed and take my worries back. In my defense, I come from a long line of worriers...
~Shawna Lee
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