Names and Revelation
Sunday, July 30, 2006
After a recent visit to the Baby Name Wizard Blog, I decided that I like two of the girl names mentioned her latest post:
Tatum
and
Harper
Tatum Grey ________.
Harper Grey ________.
Hhhhmmm......I like them both. And they both sound good with our last name. You don't know it, but trust me....both combos go well with our relatively common classic-sounding surname. I know these names are much more masculine than my favorite, Tallulah Grey, but they still appeal to me for some reason.
On a heavier note, I had a really odd morning. Odd, but good. I cried all through church. I'm not sure why. I suppose my heart was just really tender and I was very moved by every thought I had about the Lord during the praise & worship service. I'm glad that the church I go to is very open to emotional displays and the people there don't think you're completely insane if you just feel like sobbing for no reason. The waterworks would just not stop. It was an uncontrollable cry that wasn't happy or sad. I think it was a little of both.
To be honest, I think it was an answer to something that I asked God for. I've been in a spiritual rut.....like "religion" is replacing my relationship with the Father and I've just been going through the motions. That is an awful feeling. I don't want to go to church just because that's what is expected of me. I want to go because I'm excited to praise my Father and hear His Word. Anyway, I prayed last night that I wanted my heart to be softened...that I would be receptive to the things of God like I once was. Lately, it just seems as if things bounce right off of me. When I read the Word, I know I'm not REALLY comprehending the way God wants me to. When I hear the message at church, it's not soaking in. I'm hearing it, but I'm not taking it to heart. Today was different.
I know that there are things in my life right now that have taken the place of my hunger to be close to God. It sounds stupid, but I don't really care how it sounds, it's true: My obsession with reading and posting on forums like Mothering.commune and The Diaper Pin has really eaten up a lot of my time and energy lately. Time and energy that should be devoted to my real purpose in life. That's something I want to change.
Tatum
and
Harper
Tatum Grey ________.
Harper Grey ________.
Hhhhmmm......I like them both. And they both sound good with our last name. You don't know it, but trust me....both combos go well with our relatively common classic-sounding surname. I know these names are much more masculine than my favorite, Tallulah Grey, but they still appeal to me for some reason.
On a heavier note, I had a really odd morning. Odd, but good. I cried all through church. I'm not sure why. I suppose my heart was just really tender and I was very moved by every thought I had about the Lord during the praise & worship service. I'm glad that the church I go to is very open to emotional displays and the people there don't think you're completely insane if you just feel like sobbing for no reason. The waterworks would just not stop. It was an uncontrollable cry that wasn't happy or sad. I think it was a little of both.
To be honest, I think it was an answer to something that I asked God for. I've been in a spiritual rut.....like "religion" is replacing my relationship with the Father and I've just been going through the motions. That is an awful feeling. I don't want to go to church just because that's what is expected of me. I want to go because I'm excited to praise my Father and hear His Word. Anyway, I prayed last night that I wanted my heart to be softened...that I would be receptive to the things of God like I once was. Lately, it just seems as if things bounce right off of me. When I read the Word, I know I'm not REALLY comprehending the way God wants me to. When I hear the message at church, it's not soaking in. I'm hearing it, but I'm not taking it to heart. Today was different.
I know that there are things in my life right now that have taken the place of my hunger to be close to God. It sounds stupid, but I don't really care how it sounds, it's true: My obsession with reading and posting on forums like Mothering.commune and The Diaper Pin has really eaten up a lot of my time and energy lately. Time and energy that should be devoted to my real purpose in life. That's something I want to change.
Labels: baby names, spirituality
posted by Unkempt Mommy at 10:27 PM
1 Comments:
it's so easy to let other things get in the way of God, the hardest thing is admitting when it has happened and putting in perspective the other things that have become 'gods' in our life, glad for you that you've made a step in the right direction :)
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